What the hell am I doing here?

I'm so anti-blogging it's not even funny but here I am. WTF? Maybe I just need a constructive outlet for my rants and frustrations, hopes and dreams, etc, etc. Maybe I'm totally fucking lame and can't get any of my friends to listen to my bullshit anymore - who knows. But, sometimes I feel like I'm going to burst with overwhelmedness (not a word, I realize but I'm using it anyway). I'm better than this - stronger, smarter, always solving a problem with a funny joke. Fuck that shit - I'm weak, sad and lonely. Ain't that the truth!